Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Coming back...

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One of the hardest things about coming back is to know what to write in that very first sentence... Somebody told me the other day that I'm a very strong woman. I chuckled... Because I'm so not. In the past few days I went through a rollercoster of emotions - from feeling depressed and bitter to becoming lighter and better, from fear to hope and faith, from failing to the depth of darkness to learning and discovering life again, from feeling lonely to feeling so loved...

Thank you all for your kind words, wishes and cyber hugs. I want you to know that I'm feeling much better, physically and otherwise (yes Kim, I'm OK, I promise :)... I can't say it never happened. I think, I got another small hole in my heart, and my oldest son's Birthday (and also my due date) will always be a little bitter-sweet. But I'm ready for new beginnings and I know that life goes on and God is by my side!

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I wanted to update our January challenge (I slipped a little but I'm still working on it!) and other things I've been busy with but, I think I will leave it for the next few days. Right now I'm just happy to be back 'cause I missed you all! :)

How have you been???

19 comments:

  1. I was really worried so glad you are back. I am not going to say you are okay, just back. Grief takes time, trust me I know. Just remember things happen for a reason, we don't always get to know the reason, that is where faith comes in, and you have great faith. I had 9 pregnancies and I raised 3 children, it was hard, but as I look back I realize I could not have done it any other way. I did not have the personality to have many little ones under my feet at once. Yet I teach large groups of children daily? But as a Mom I was really better off with one at a time. When I got one in school, the Lord would send me another. Of course I have had a kid in college now for 17 years straight. I think God has a sense of humor. Kim plans, God laughs. I love you sweetie, and your life ain't over yet!

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    1. You are amazing! And I definitely see His sense of humor in my life too. Just look at my red-haired husband :) I don't have a personality for a huge family either but I/we feel that there is somebody else who needs to join our family. Just when time is right. But if anything I've learned from what happened is that I need to start taking care of myself too. I kind of let myself go lately...

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  2. Welcome back!!! You have been missed

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  3. Lena, I think I can speak for many, many people in that we missed you too!
    So very sorry for your loss, thought and prayers are being sent to you at this particularly difficult time.

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    1. Thank you so much, Marie! I truly appreciate it!

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  4. I'm so happy that you are on the mend. I hope that your days will continue to be better and better.

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  5. Welcome back! Don't worry, little by little, you will feel a bit better each time. We've been busy on this side of the map! Work work work, some cold temps, which I loved, and now we're back to the random work work work. I want a vacation right about now!

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    1. I'm glad you are enjoying cold weather! :) We have some mid-forties here and lots of sun, and I'm grateful for it (minus the quality of the air). I'm so ready for spring...

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  6. I've been thinking of you lots this week . . . but wanted to give you space to deal with all your emotions. Glad to hear you are ready to deal with what life sends your way. Love ya!

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  7. You have been in my prayers. Take your time and don't rush things will feel, well different now. Please know we are all here for you. And we missed you.

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  8. Been thinking of you, Lena - YES! God is ALWAYS in control and His plan is always perfect. It's so hard to accept this, but to put everything in His hands and know that you will be taken care of - - truly a test of our faith. Peace.

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  9. It's good to have you back and I'm pleased you feel a little stronger and able to cope.
    Carolx

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  10. May the Lord bless you and hold you up during your trials in life. Please do not ever give up hope in whatever situation you may go through. Gods best to you and your family.

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