Hello, my dear friends! How was your day today?
Thank you all who left your kind comments and support here yesterday. My Grandma was laid to rest today. It was simple and peaceful. I felt bad that I couldn't be there by my parents' (especially my Dad's) side. I checked the tickets but I just wouldn't make it there in time. But we did talk a LOT in the past three days and they are doing as good as you can in the situation. I don't think my Dad fully realizes what has happened just yet but he's very strong and knows she's in a better place right now...
In the past few days many people have asked me how I was doing and holding up. Honestly, I don't know. Don't know yet. But I know my Grandma would want me to keep going, to live and to care for those around me, and to enjoy life. I took this picture the other day - I think it really matches how I feel:
I feel like there are a lot of clouds covering the path right now but somewhere behind it there is light, and slowly but surely the sun will go up again. I just need to keep going, to keep living. For myself, for my loved ones, for Grandma. I don't know what tomorrow will bring but I know that He holds all of our tomorrows in His hands, so all I can do is to trust in His mercy...
I'm trying to be normal, to live normal right now. I even made a menu today, lol. It's not easy and it, probably, shouldn't be...But today I'm choosing life because my Grandma always chose to live her life to the fullest and to enjoy every moment of it!
Bless you
ReplyDeleteCarolx
Thank you!
DeleteStay strong sweet friend, You are right your grandmother would want you to live life, find happiness and joy in everything you see and do. Celebrate the life you have now and the wonderful memories you have of her
ReplyDeleteThat's what I'm trying to do right now. It's not easy but, I know, it makes her happy...
DeleteWhat a lovely post. Choosing life is all any of us can really do. Good luck with each every day.
ReplyDeleteThank you.
DeleteAtta, Lena! It isn't easy. You've gone through a lot. But your attitude always makes a difference, and you take these challenges in such a positive note, even when it hurts. You'll get over this hurdle of feelings and come to peace with things soon. Love the photo. Keeping you in my thoughts.
ReplyDelete(Though while you're at it, can I copy your menu?)
No, it's not! But it's worth a try.
DeleteAnd as for my menu, it's pretty plain this week - just using up stuff from our freezer :) But I did my best:)
Everything is coming at once for you, you must be thinking 'what next'. Just remember it came to pass and not to stay. And at these times its okay to be sad. Let yourself grieve xxx
ReplyDeleteThank you for your kind words! I can't say I don't think what tomorrow can bring but I got to the point when I try not to ask why, just how to survive through it...
DeleteHugs Lena, sorry for your loss, losing Grandma's are hard, I lost my one grandma when I was 12 and my other one when I was 28 or so and miss each one of them daily. Grandma's hold a very special place in our hearts, Grandma's are very special and dear to us. Love and Light your way.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much! Grandmas are very-very special indeed!
DeleteWe are truly blessed to have been given Life my dear friend, live your to the fullest you can. I am certain you are right about your Grandmother wanting the same for you. xxx
ReplyDeleteThank you, Cindy!
DeleteI'm sorry, Lena! I loved both my grandma's dearly (and yes, 75 is young for a woman). I always pray for them and I love to daydream of my memories with them. I will say a prayer for your grandmother.love,andrea
ReplyDeleteLena, so sorry for your loss. I like the pic and your analogy. The light is always there somewhere but it can be hard to see it. Sometimes you have to really search for that light.
ReplyDeleteIt's definitely hard sometimes. I'm trying but it will take time, I'm afraid...
DeleteYour grandmother sounds like mine - live life to the fullest, take care of your family, find peace in each season of life. My grandmother's death hit me hard, and I will admit that even a few years after the fact I'd tear up for no known reason. But I was able to dig up some flower bulbs that she'd had before her house was sold and replant them right by my front door, and each spring when they bloom it puts a wonderful smile on my face to remember her.
ReplyDeleteOh, what a beautiful way to remember your Grandma. Sounds like she was an amazing person. Thank you for sharing it!!
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